Last week, I shared how common it is for patients and loved ones to struggle with the severity of our PF diagnosis. We are all equipped differently to handle emotional pain and face the reality of what we are dealing with. Our faith can be a source of strength and comfort, or it can be shaken to its core during such difficult times.
Questioning faith in God?
It is hard for all of us to reconcile how tragedies happen to those who have a positive effect on the world. It shakes our sense of how the world is supposed to be and may cause us to question our faith in God. My faith is very important to me – it is the foundation for how I live my life, and how I cope with having pulmonary fibrosis.
It can be hard to reconcile that God can dearly love us, yet allow tragedy into our lives. For some, the seeming disconnect is too much to handle, and they may either reject or question their faith in God. For others, our faith provides a source of strength, comfort, and purpose.
When going through hardships and devastating losses it is very normal to ask questions such as,“Why? Why me? God, Why won’t you heal me?” plus a whole lot more. Asking these questions, feeling the emotions, and wishing for a different reality is normal, and part of the grief process. It’s normal to feel angry, disappointed, and confused about what is happening.
Here’s my perspective. I know it may be different from yours.
God has not failed or disappointed me. What helps me adjust to such devastating health news is how I see God, and my worldview:
- The world is not fair, and it’s not supposed to be. Bad things happen – we live in a fallen world.
- God never promises we won’t have hardships. In fact, it’s just the opposite.
- He doesn’t promise healing. He welcomes us to ask for it, but that is His decision.
- What He does promise is that He will be with me through whatever I’m going through. And He always keeps that promise.
- The world we want isn’t here, it is in heaven.
- He decides these things, I don’t decide these things.
- What I do decide is how I handle it, how I cling to Him, how I care for myself, how I use whatever is happening for greater good, and how I let God use me to bless others. This is what I’m trying to put my time and energy into.
- He promises in Romans 8:28 that, “God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.”
- I believe I am a small and important part of the big picture. I know that God is using what I am going through to help others. I don’t need to know why; I trust Him.
I’m not placing my hope and well-being in getting a lung transplant in time. My hope is in Him, and His purposes for my life. I want to continue to grow and mature, and help others the best I can, for as long as I can.
I go through days of sadness and distress just like anyone else. So far, I’m able to come back to my Hope in Him, after I process my normal emotions.
I feel released from worrying, planning, and obsessing about changing things over which I have no control. My hope and confidence are in Him, who created this whole world, and my very life. I know He will not forsake me — even when His answers and my future turn out different than I’d like.
Following are some verses that bring me great comfort:
I hope they will be to you as well. Don’t confuse what has happened with who God is. He is good and will be with you as you and your loved ones live with pulmonary fibrosis.
I’d love to hear from you!
What stood out for you in this column? How has your faith been affected by your diagnosis of pulmonary fibrosis? What is hard about what I shared? What is a comfort?
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