Navigating emotional ups and downs on my IPF journey
Recent events have caused me to hit both ends of the mood spectrum
Buckle up. The past three weeks have been an emotional roller coaster for me. On a scale of -10 to 10, I’ve hit both extremes.
I’m no stranger to emotion; some would say I wear my heart on my sleeve. During my journey I’ve had some huge emotional ups and downs, beginning with my diagnosis of idiopathic pulmonary fibrosis (IPF) in January 2017:
- The birth of my first granddaughter, Abigail, in January 2018
- Signing the documents for my funeral and cremation when death seemed close
- Receiving the call that lungs were available, and my bilateral lung transplant in July 2021
- Grieving for my donor and their family then and now, on each anniversary of my transplant
- The birth of my second granddaughter, Charlotte, in May 2022
- My brother Mark’s IPF diagnosis last month
- Followed 10 days later by the birth of my third granddaughter, Brooklyn Ann.
Sam Kirton recently welcomed his third granddaughter, Brooklyn Ann. (Courtesy of Sam Kirton)
One thing I’ve learned over the years is that I have to let my emotions escape. I cannot keep them suppressed, as that can harm my mental and physical health. If you’ve seen the story that Richmond, Virginia, station WTVR CBS 6 News produced, “Sam’s Purpose: Make Every Breath Count,” you know I don’t try to hide my emotions.
I think that’s the reason I embraced my diagnosis. I could’ve chosen denial, but the consequences would’ve made my journey more difficult. Keeping a positive attitude has proven to be the right choice for me. It’s also been helpful when dealing with others who are newly diagnosed or having difficulty navigating this disease.
A low, followed by a high
Now I must put emotion aside as I deal with my brother Mark’s diagnosis. It starts a new chapter in my journey and renews my search for answers. The cause of my IPF was never established, and now one of my primary questions is whether there’s a genetic component to this disease Mark and I share.
If there is, does it extend to every blood relative? IPF is a chronic, progressive disease with no cure. In the coming weeks, I’ll spend time crafting a letter to relatives far and wide. While I don’t want to be an alarmist riding my steed through the streets shouting, “IPF is coming! IPF is coming!,” I do feel a need to help educate the broader family. I want them to consider sharing this information with their primary care physician. The earlier this disease can be identified, the greater the opportunity for a patient to make informed decisions about their future.
On the other end of the emotional spectrum is the birth of Brooklyn Ann. When I was diagnosed, I had no grandchildren and wasn’t sure I’d ever get to meet any. Now, I have three granddaughters. I haven’t held Brooklyn yet, but I was able to FaceTime with her on the day she arrived home. She wasn’t much of a conversationalist. I suspect she was tired, as her delivery involved 24 hours of labor for Mom.
How do you manage emotional ups and downs on your journey? What are your best coping techniques? I’d love to hear from you in the comments. It will make us all better, and I know it will help me make every breath count.
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