I Need to Trust You When You Say I’m Not a Burden

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by Charlene Marshall |

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I have always enjoyed doing things on my own, and valued my independence while growing up. I want to continue to be as independent as possible for as long as possible. As a result, I find asking for help very difficult. This is partially due to not knowing how others can help me. When many of your friends and family live out of town and lead very busy lives, it is hard knowing how to ask for help. Sometimes even I don’t know what I need.

Asking for help is especially difficult for me because one of my biggest fears is that I am becoming a burden to friends, family and colleagues. I worry I am a burden to those who support me physically and emotionally on a daily basis.

I know my friends, family and colleagues reading this would disagree. They would tell me that I am not being a burden. In fact, many of them have corrected me when I have shared this fear out loud. And, although I appreciate their kindness in telling me that I am not, it is important to understand why I fear and realistically believe that I might be becoming a burden.

First, between the steroids and the emotions that come with a life-threatening illness, I certainly feel more “needy” than ever. I don’t even know what I need from people; most of the time it isn’t anything tangible. But I appreciate being around others. I have never felt this way before — a strong desire to have others around just so I am not alone with my thoughts and fears. I don’t want anyone to feel the pressure of spending time with me, and I don’t want to be on my own. As a result of how I am feeling, I am asking more of others, which makes me feel like a burden.

Frankly, I physically cannot do as much as I used to be able to do, which causes me to rely on the help of others. This has meant asking for help carrying things, and not just if someone is close by. I also have had to ask people to stop what they are doing to come and help me. An example of this is when I cannot carry in everything I need for the day from my car to the office, and I rely on colleagues to help me. There is no possible way I cannot feel like a burden when I ask someone to stop what they are doing, walk downstairs and outside, just to help me carry something inside. This is a very painful reminder for me that I am beginning to rely on others to help me more each day. My fear is that people will begin to resent me for needing their help.

Due to the nature of pulmonary fibrosis and the unpredictability of it, I cannot always be proactive in asking for help, but I try. I recognize those helping me have busy lives, but I may need to ask for help if I become unwell from a side effect of a new medication, or suddenly become weak or short of breath. I know people cannot always jump in to help me, and I don’t expect people to change their plans for me. But in the instances when that has happened, I really feel like a burden due to the short notice of needing someone’s assistance.

I’ve been having a string of daily sadness, which only heightens how much I feel like a burden to all the people I love and care about. Perhaps as I begin to feel better emotionally, I will remember that I do not need this extra help because I am lazy or whiny. It is because I am battling a fatal lung disease that is depriving my body of oxygen.

Until then, I just need to trust you when you say that I am not a burden.


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MarshaN avatar


You described exactly what I am feeling. Thank you

Tim Bossie avatar

Tim Bossie

It is so difficult to ask for help from our friends and family. However, it is important to realize that those people are there because they love and not because of compulsion.

Russel J Fabre avatar

Russel J Fabre

Thank you Tim! As a caregiver, I've watched a strong independent man who never asked for help, now depend on my help or the help of others. It's been very difficult for him, but he is adapting. God didn't raise us to be totally independent. He gave us the love and caring of many others in our lives. He gave us compassion. I thank God that I can give back to my husband for all he has done for me. Never a burden!!!!! Just a different way of life. Anita

Linda avatar


Thank you as Marsha and Tim said its also how I am feeling. It is hard asking for help especially for what seems like small (should be)easy tasks that we would have done automatically not to long ago. I've also found it difficult when I'm out with family and friends to ask them to slow down when we are walking, it's easy for them to forget and go at their own pace and easy for us to just try and keep up.

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Paula Caravella

Like you I have always had a hard time asking for help. That is in part to my mother's philosophy that if you were trying to do something, if you needed help, then you had no business going after what it was you were trying to do.
It was planning my mother's funeral that I had to acknowledge that I did need help. It was hard but I was able to do it with much appreciation.
Like you, dealing with the fibrosis, there are ever increasing times when you need to ask for help, though you try to do probably more than you should which results in getting totally exhausted.
I am blessed that my circle of family and friends get my need to be independent but sometimes......... And they are there.
As one other person commented, your friends and family will be there for you. Sometimes you just need to remind them that you need help from time to time. Like you, they remember when you were totally independent and its hard for them to picture you as needing help once in awhile.

Tim Bossie avatar

Tim Bossie

Hi Paula, you are so right. It is hard to ask for help as we do not want our family and friends to be burdened with our problems. However, our family and friends are there for you to lean on and help to carry the load so to speak.


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