Measuring Productivity Differently as a Patient with Pulmonary Fibrosis

Last week I wrote a column about energy expenditures and how I choose where to invest my energy in the multiple tasks vying for my attention. Unfortunately, since being diagnosed with idiopathic pulmonary fibrosis (IPF) four years ago, I just can’t give everything the energy I’d like. As a result, I’ve had to learn how to balance my energy levels with rest, both physical and mental, which has not been easy. I have had to learn to measure my productivity differently since being diagnosed with IPF as well.

Prior to my diagnosis, I would be on the go from sunrise to sunset. I was attending school full-time, volunteering on various boards or committees, and playing two intense sports — all while enjoying every moment of a social calendar that was very full. I even tried to keep up this momentum after my diagnosis, but within a year I experienced my first significant setback, which made me realize I had to slow down. Since then, I’ve been forced to do things differently and really evaluate what is good for my mental and physical health, and what isn’t.

In hindsight, I believe I used my hectic schedule to measure productivity and feel successful. Many of the roles I held became part of my identity, be it a volunteer, athlete, student, or board member. After my IPF diagnosis, when those identities began to fall apart because I was too tired or sick, I felt very lost and confused. Since then, it has been a challenge to reframe my mind from focusing on what I can no longer do to focusing on what I can still do. I now measure productivity differently as a patient who lives with a life-threatening lung disease. I focus on the quality of my accomplishments rather than the quantity.

Unfortunately, over the years since my diagnosis, I’ve shied away from a few projects or social events out of fear. Because I was far more tired than usual or was using supplemental oxygen, I thought I wouldn’t be able to do as much as others expected of me, or I wouldn’t be able to do it as well as I could before IPF. I have since learned this fear was entirely misplaced and if I educated others on my abilities and what I needed, their expectations of me shifted. I was then left to shift my own expectations, and accept that I couldn’t do all that I could before. However, that didn’t necessarily mean I wasn’t being productive.

While I knew I needed to measure productivity differently since getting sick, I didn’t know how to do that, so I had to use simple examples to get started. One of the examples I used was walking my dog. When I was healthy, I could work full-time days, come home to cook dinner, run an errand, work out, and take my dog for a walk, sometimes late into the evening. If I could do all of these things, I’d consider it a productive day.

However, once my shortness of breath started to intensify, I became increasingly exhausted and unable to do all these tasks in a day. I was devastated, and had to think about which tasks to eliminate from my list. My dog needed to go on a walk, so I had to release other things so I could reserve enough energy to take her for a stroll. She loves walking with me, and I find it very relaxing as well, so now I consider my day productive if my golden retriever and I go on a walk at the end of the day, regardless of the length. Even if that is the only thing I accomplish in the evening, knowing it is quality time with her makes it a productive day in my mind.

My measurement of quality rather than quantity also applies to my friends and family members. If I have to set aside a number of tasks on my “to-do” list in order to have enough energy to support them through something, I still consider that a productive day. Even if I don’t finish what I needed to, being able to spend time with friends and family is quality time I wouldn’t give up for anything. I might accomplish one task rather than many, but that doesn’t mean I should consider myself less productive. My productivity looks a little different now as a patient with IPF, but it’s no less important. After all, it is all just about how you choose to measure it.

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